SO, with this journey, I have realized that I am so different now. Maybe I am more grown up, more chill, less stressed.. I don't know.. but I do know that I have been thinking of so many different ways to "re discover myself".
Well, I did it! I finally re-discovered an old passion of mine! Many of you may know what I am talking about because it is plastered all over my facebook page. ART!!
I originally study Fashion Design and Merchandising in College, and took design/drawing classes and such. I knew that I never wanted to be in the Fashion Industry, but I loved the creativity and that there are no boundaries. So, a few years back I discovered my baby, HAIR DESIGN. I love it.. love love love it! It makes me so happy, when I am creating a new look for someone, I just love to be able to envision the finished result. I love making people feel beautiful, confident and happy. Okay, so I love creativity, that is the point I am trying to make.
Over the years, I have met many different people, a few of my dear friends are in the Art Industry, and Fashion industry. Every time we would get together and I would see their art, photography, designs, etc I would just feel this rush, like "I love that, I am still supposed to do that" but that lovely little voice in my head.. you guys know the one, we all have it.. it would say "It's too late, you are too old.. blah blah blah"....
Well, I am glad that I am ignoring that lovely voice.
I knew that when I was done with Cancer.. I wanted to do something to represent the strength, pain, courage, time that was spent on this journey. I know I have talked about the Mumford and Sons lyrics that got me through those nights where I felt like my body was attacking itself (in reality it was freaking out because of the chemo)
"I'll find strength in Pain" .... I would repeat that or sing those words to myself... all the time.. I still do.. I love them and I love Mumford and Sons for that very reason, they helped me get through this journey.. now if you really listen to their lyrics, you may think "wow.. that has nothing to with happiness and surviving and such" But, it wasn't necessarily the "words" that have gotten me through. It was the music, the instruments, the beautiful melodies. That is what did it. It was the beautiful singing voices of Marcus Mumford, Ben Lovett, Wintston Marshall, and Ted Dwane.
Then the AMAZING phrase that I love. "Kia Kaha" - Forever Strong.. it's strong, its empowering.. I am so happy that my cousin started saying that to me the other day. It has stuck with me.
So, after thinking and pondering, I knew I wanted to make a painting. Paintings are like tattoos, they are both ART.. except this one I could hang on my wall instead of my body (My Mom and Dad are going to love this sentence so much .. haha I love you Padre and Madre!)
So... I thought about this painting.. long and hard.. One of my best friends, Karen, is finishing up Art School. I have always been inspired by her art. It's very absract and colorful.... She has created so many amazing paintings.. And I actually was given one of them as a present a few years back. So, I talked to Karen and told her of my idea! She was on board! So, that weekend Karen, Kelly, and Myself went to an Art Studio that Karen uses downtown and got to work.
During this process, an artist was born! haha
So, I have it figured out. I have been trying to figure this out for years actually!!
I am so excited about this journey, I have been drawing and painting and learning and studying the past few days, and will continue to do so until the day I die.. (80 years from now)
.:~* It's almost finished!*~:.
.:~* The Chanel Painting. By Karen D.. Coco Chanel is my Inspiration .. I could talk about her for hours and hours*~:.
.:~* One of Karen's more recent ones! Water colors*~:.
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