So, after a few weeks of being on a roller coaster of emotion, I woke up today for the first time in a while, so HAPPY. It's nice being greeted with a 'clearing in the dark skies' for a brief moment.
This morning, my mind was clear, granted I was pretty tired from the evening before.. it was full of random adventures and good conversations, that were all unplanned and unexpected (those are usually the most memorable experiences). It was almost like a mental/spiritual 'recharge', that was much needed. I felt like I could smile (and mean it) again. And, enjoy simple things like listening to a good song on the radio, putting on a new lip gloss, or even saving a bunny (its a long yet awesome story)
I just feel so much gratitude at this moment.
Even though this journey is still full of much uncertainty, I wouldn't trade my life for anything.
I am still so excited for the upcoming year, I have so many plans, and I'm not going to let having 'cancer' prevent me from living life, being happy, and having fun.
I am sure I will still face moments where I feel as though I won't smile again, but, today is living proof that those moments are far and few in the entire scheme of things.
Lauren, you have such amazing faith. My friend, Brian was that same way. I love you so much and i'm praying for you! Keep up the bright spirits and when you don't feel so bright, you are always welcome to call or text me. Have another great day, girl. Love you!
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