A New Dress

The end of this road is now in sight. It's finally February, I never thought I would see this month. Back in October, it seemed so far away. I am so happy the worst is almost over. So happy. So happy for new opportunities that lie ahead, so happy to have a new chapter start. This one will always be engraved upon my heart.

I met another gentleman on Sunday at the Treatment Center. I was waiting to get bloodwork done, he walked in the waiting room and began to tell me that his wife was in ICU, and that he had just gotten back from Steinmart, he had permission to take her with him so she could pick out a new dress and shoes to wear when she met Jesus. He was so composed when he told me this. I had never seen him before, I was a stranger to him, yet, he shared that moment with me. I tried to offer him words of comfort, but all I could do was tell him that everything was going to be okay, as I held back tears. I went back to my room and cried. Cried because of the pain that man and his family must be feeling. Cried because being surrounded by amazing and strong people who are also fighting for their lives scares me. I know it scares them too, I've seen it in their eyes. My brother had the opportunity to go to Tulsa with me this time. He sat with me while they hooked me up to the machine that is saving my life. He sat there while I slept, while I was in pain. He said the moment that really made him sad the most was when he saw the look of fear in my eyes while we were there. He said he had never seen that look before. He said it made this whole thing so real.

it is real. But, it's almost done. Soon, it will be done and I can focus my energy and time on other things. But, at this very moment, it's most important that I focus on this. It's taught me alot about myself, which in turn I am so grateful for. I've rediscovered who I am, what I love, what I need, and even what I don't need. I feel as though I have waited my whole life to get to this point. I know that life is constantly about learning, progressing, and changing. So I am pretty sure 5 years from now I will be even more different than I am today. But, it's up to me how I get there. I'm going to take everything I've learned and use it for good, and will continue to be a daugther of Heavenly Father. If it weren't for him and all the tender mercies he has blessed me with, I wouldn't be here today.

Life is a blessing.. It's one I am going to cherish for the rest of my life :)