chocolate rain

I've been thinking alot the past few hours. Just reflecting on everything, literally everything. I have moments like that. It wasn't anything stressful. I suppose I was reminiscing about everything. Interactions with people, memories, conversations, experiences, all of that. Yesterday, I found my journal from last year, I read it and was able to feel gratitude, I'm grateful for every experience (good and bad) that I have had. I wouldn't change anything about the journey I have been on since the day I was born. Every single experience has made me who I am today.

Do you ever listen to music that reminds you of a good time in your life? I do. Right now it's my favorite band Mumford and Sons. I started listening to them last summer and listened to them a lot in the fall. Especially, when I was first diagnosed with cancer. The music reminds me of one of the calmest moments I had. (im typing this blog from my phone and am limited on how many times I can go back and re write a sentence, so please excuse me if some of the sentences don't flow) Like I said, October, listening to Mumford and Sons was a calm moment in my life. I spent many of my days out in the country with 2 dear friends of mine. We all shared laughs, and memories. I learned how to shoot a rifle, learned how to make a fire in a wood burning stove, learned how to make hummus, learned so much. It was the first time in my life in years where I was able to let go, breathe and live. I needed that month in my life to get where I am today. I needed my 2 dear friends at that time to grow. To let go of all the petty stressors in life. I needed them to cry to, vent to, talk to. And in return they both ( at different time) lifted me up, raised me up, stood up for me. And for them I am forever grateful. I wish nothing more for them than to continue to find the happiness that they deserve. I know they are both finding it.

So, Morgan and Noah, this blog is for you. You guys are my brothers, you helped me more than you realize when I needed friends the most. You guys have been on my mind lately and I want you guys to know how grateful I am for the adventures we have had. You guys are amazing. I can't wait to see where life takes both of you.


Always remember Kuato and "Chocolate Rain" (indian horse pose)