Today was the end of my 4 round of chemo. I cannot believe how fast time has flown. I feel I become a different person each time I come down to Tulsa. I'm grateful for it. There are so many thoughts on my mind right now. All good thoughts of course. You know, I was talking to one of the nurse's today, she was asking me about my interests and such, I had no idea how to answer. It's weird because all the minor things that I used to obsess over, worry about, or loved more than anything aren't as importan to me now. I still have my moments where I obsess or worry, but not as much as I used to.
My thoughts today are short and simple. I am grateful to be alive. I am grateful that
the cancer is shrinking. I am grateful for loved ones (friends and family). I am grateful for the Savior Jesus Christ, and Heavenly Father. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for them. I feel so blessed.
This journey hasn't been easy. I have had many moments of happiness and joy. And many moments of tears and pain. There were moments where I felt like I couldn't endure the physical changes, pain, and discomfort any longer. But, it was in those moments where I felt the mercy of the Lord, and felt the love and prayers from many. Words cannot express how grateful I am for each and everyone of you, especially those individuals who have been a part of this journey with me firsthand. I wouldn't have been able to do this without you. My prayer is that the Lord blesses each and everyone of you, as he as me.
Always remember how amazing life is, treasure it.
I heart you!
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